A wonderful blogger drew it to my attention that she tried to read my post Scars are Tattoos From God and was unable to finish reading my entire post. She wrote to me to tell me she had a loved one that also engaged in self injurious behaviors making my post too difficult for this blogger to finish reading.
However, she said she still thought it was very important to share information about SIB.
I felt bad that with my very detailed words and writing about SIB that I may have made her sad and touched a difficult place in her heart. It makes me think that I also could have touched many other readers in this same way. If I did I want to apologize to all of you if it bothered you in any anyway and let you know that it was never my intention to make you feel uncomfortable or sad.
Also, my writing of SIB may have been too detailed for some portraying graphic images and I would like to apologize if that bothered people as well.
I think maybe I should have wrote a “warning” at the beginning of my post and that may have helped. I don’t know. That was an oversight on my part.
The main purpose and goal of my blog is to increase awareness and educate about bipolar disorder and mental illness. It is a difficult subject for many readers to read and understand.
However, my passion is very sincere and passionate because I love people and know I need to be a voice for many of them and the other survivors that cannot speak for themselves. I saw, lived and survived so much over the 20 years that I struggled significantly with my severe bipolar and other severe mental illness diagnoses that I feel God chose me to have this debilitating illness and was with me through it all.
I suffered and survived so I can and must tell my story to others. I feel that it is important to educate about the many different aspects of mental illness. Some of it will be hard for people to read and I am sorry about that but I feel it is important information to share, educate and let other people know that they are not alone in their struggles.
Also, please remember when I engaged in my SIB I was extremely ill with my severe bipolar disorder, PTSD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder and personality disorder. It was because of the severity of my mental illness and severe brain disease that I engaged in SIB and my hands hurt my body the way they did.
l no longer engage in self injurious behavior of any kind and have not for over two years.
Each part of my personal story and journey of my life that I write is also filled with HOPE.
I share all of my heart openly and honestly with love to all of you hoping to educate and help as many people as I can in as many ways as possible.
I won and beat my severe battle with SIB and bipolar disorder surviving because of the love and grace of God. God saved my life and I became born again with a chance of surviving, thriving and living a brand new life.
I am writing a brand new chapter of my life right now and it is going to be a beautiful long novel of life full faith, peace, love and hope and how I will live my new life for Christ.
God gave me a second chance at life. I have become born again and He lives and loves in me and through me always and forever.