~WARNING~ This poem may be depressing to some, but these are my honest words of what my reality of living with my severe bipolar 1 disorder with mixed episodes and rapid cycling and PTSD is sometimes like.


Because I Know Too Much…

Because I know what Bipolar is, I know what it feels like to want to be dead.

Because I know what it feels like to want to be dead, I know what it feels like to be dead.

Because I know what it feels like to be dead, I know what death is.

Because I know what death is, I know what life is.

Because I know what life is, I know what love is.

Because I know what love is, I know what love feels like.

Because I know what love feels like, I know what it feels like to be alive.

Because I know what it feels like to be alive, I know what living is.

Because I know what living is, I know what dying is.

Because I know what dying is, I know what the ending is.

Because I know what the ending is, I know how it will end.

Because I know how it will end, I know what death is.

Because I know what death is, I know too much.

Because I know too much, I know more than I want to know.

Because I know more than I want to know, I know more than I should know.

Because I know more than I should know, I know bipolar.

Because I know Bipolar, I learned too much.

Because I learned too much,

I know too much.


“I wrote this poem after thoughts rapidly fired inside my mind after watching the remake of the movie “Beaches” on the LMN channel late last night. I love that movie and it is truly a movie about life and death, living and dying.

My thoughts rapidly flew into my mind about how I all ready know too much about life, because I know so much about death. I know what death is because I have been so painfully close to it many times. So, this poem comes from the reality of my rapid thoughts, living with bipolar disorder and from watching the movie ‘Beaches’ late last night. I hope you like my thoughts and poem. It is very deep as my mind and thought processes always think and feel very deeply about life and living”


(Picture was used from the “Deviant Art” Website)

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