I will pursue  a life different from my original plans,

becoming more than I ever thought possible.

I will pursue a life far greater than my dreams.

accomplishing more than I ever thought I could.

I will pursue the life God called me to live,

serving Him in the direction He has called me to go,

loving Him deeply and knowing Him more than I ever did before.

 

I was on my way with the plans and dreams I had for my life,

teaching Special Education, being married with two children and owning my own home.

I had worked hard to get where I was and saw my future headed in the right direction,

and where I anticipated my life to go.

 

Soon everything abruptly changed and stopped,

life as I once knew it was gone,

everything about my life

and the person I thought I was left.

My life and I became no more.

 

My dreams and the direction my life was going all disappeared,

vanished into thin air, never to be seen again,

all destroyed by my bipolar disorder diagnosis

and the destructive path bipolar caused me to take.

 

After many years of living with severe pain, struggling to survive, having to live often in the hospital and halfway houses, being homeless for over three months, surviving near death experiences due to dangerous men and my many suicide attempts,

I finally decided to overcome my many obstacles and struggles, learn how to live again and survive.

I chose life.

 

God helped me to understand and realize that He always had a far greater plan for my life and for the person I was to become.

I needed to go through the many struggles I experienced and overcame,

struggling and traveling along the paths and journey I did as part of His plan and experiences for me to grow,  learn and become a better person,

reaching a far better place for my life and the person I was to become.

 

I have finally accepted the new life I have today,

accepting the new and improved person I am,

understanding there is no looking back at what could have been or would have been.

This is my life today and I will live one moment at a time trying to always be the best person I can be,

helping and loving others,

and even slowly learning to love myself.

 

I will pursue a life different from my original plans,

becoming more than I ever thought possible.

I will pursue a life far greater than my dreams.

accomplishing more than I ever thought I could.

I will pursue the life God called me to live,

serving Him in the direction He has called me to go,

loving Him deeply and knowing Him more than I ever did before.

 

I am alive.

I praise God for my many blessings,

and my every breath of life.

 

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