Locked by a bipolar gate that held me captive inside my own mind, barbed wire fences encircling me and surrounding me for over twenty-five years, not allowing me to break free. I was forced to live behind these fences of mental illness keeping me trapped, surrounding me and enclosing me off from the outside world and life I was destined and determined to live.

Behind my bipolar fences, trapping me inside my mind, void of any freedom to live the life I wanted, I spent a combination of many years in the psychiatric hospital, half-way houses and received over 100 electro-convulsive therapy treatments over a twenty year time period, causing me to lose a lot of my memory and mental recall abilities. I was put on every possible bipolar medication and combinations of medications, but because I got severe side effects and adverse reactions from the necessary medications used to treat my bipolar symptoms, it caused me to become even more seriously ill and unable to function and live a normal so-called life.

I was living a life that was not a life worth living, but I was living a life that was worth fighting for. I used every ounce of strength and spirit I had inside me to fight my daily struggles, obstacles and severe symptoms from my severe bipolar 1 disorder with mixed episodes and ultradian rapid cycling, PTSD, generalized anxiety disorder and personality disorder.

God gave me hope and ignited a spark of light and fire inside me, so I could fight and break free from the bondage of my despair and sorrow of the life I was forced to live and was trying to survive. Finally, I broke free from the fence encircling me for over twenty years. My locked gate keeping inside the fences of my mind finally became open. My gate was unlocked and I slowly left the prison from behind the fences inside my mind.

When God determined that I had gained enough strength, learned enough from the many beautiful lessons I had been taught and my heart and spirit had been filled with enough love that I could share it with others, God unlocked my gate and set me free from my bipolar fences.

God opened the gate and set me free. I have been set free with the weight of my load tremendously lightened, my struggles lessened, my burdens decreased, my obstacles moved aside and my heart opened up and filled with love again.

My load has been lightened and my heart has been set free to live and love life again. My heart is filled with love and the beauty and joy of living. There are many blessings and much beauty that come from the many lessons learned and from the courage and strength that suffering and struggles create in us. Now I am blessed to love, help, encourage and inspire many people.

“A gentle word opens an iron gate.”  ~Bulgarian Proverb

Music video “Shackles” originally sung by Mary Mary (with Lyrics)

“Shackles” Lyrics

It sure is hot out here
Ya know?
I don’t mind thought
Just glad to be free
Know what I’m saying, uh!

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
(What’cha wanna do?)
I just wanna praise you
(Yeah, yeah)
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
(Uh feel me?)
And I’m gonna praise you
(What’cha gon do?)
I’m gonna praise you

In the corners of mind
I just can’t seem to find a reason to believe
That I can break free
Cause you see I have been down for so long
Feel like the hope is gone
But as I lift my hands, I understand
That I should praise you through my circumstance

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
I just wanna praise you
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
And I’m gonna praise you
I’m gonna praise you

Everything that could go wrong
All went wrong at one time
So much pressure fell on me
I thought I was gon lose my mind
But I know you wanna see
If I will hold on through these trials
But I need you to lift this load
Cause I can’t take it anymore

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
I just wanna praise you
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
And I’m gonna praise you
I’m gonna praise you

Been through the fire and the rain
Bound in every kind of way
But God has broken every chain
So let me go right now

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
I just wanna praise you
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
And I’m gonna praise you
I’m gonna praise you
[repeat x3]

Take them off
What’cha gonna do, yeah

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
I just wanna praise you
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
And I’m gonna praise you
I’m gonna praise you

Written by Erica Atkins-Campbell, Erica Monique Atkins-Campbell, Trecina Atkins-Campbell, Warryn Campbell • Copyright © Universal Music Publishing Group
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