My Bipolar Depression Has Set In (Worship Video Included – Daily Word Prompt is Trance)

My brain has shut down, like I’m in a trance.

I have stopped, immobilized, unable to prance.

This is what happens when my bipolar depression sets in,

everything feels hopeless, nothing is good and I never win.

I have been hypomanic for so long, it felt beautiful, like I was winning.

Hypomania never lasts forever, I knew the crashing has been beginning,

doing too much, much too often, haven’t been able to sleep for days,

knew it was coming, no sleep is dangerous, goodness never stays.

Deep sorrow, pain, anger, hate and despair in many different ways.

Still can’t sleep, but now I can’t get anything done

even though I’m up from dawn to the setting sun.

I think my mood pole is in a mixed state

which is the type of bipolar I truly do hate.

I pray my depression doesn’t turn to the worst severe suicidal depression kind.

Right now my depression is severe, but not too many suicidal ideations in my mind.

I thank God for that and pray that my depression decreases, releases and ceases,

so I can go back up to my hypomanic mood pole where my happiness increases.

I will be strong, hold on and keep fighting today,

writing, finding distractions and to God I must pray.

God is always with me and has saved my life numerous times before.

I praise God and have faith in Him. He is my Father I love and adore.

Today and every day,

I must pray…


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Artwork is from Deviant Art

https://dailypost.wordpress.com/prompts/trance/

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3 comments

  1. Lord I lift this child of yours up and lay her at your feet on the cross. Please rid her of this depression she has entered and bring her comfort and your peace that transcends all understanding. I ask that you restore her health and wholeness. In your precious name dear Jesus! Amen!

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