I have Bipolar Disorder, Therefore I am Brave

“You can’t be brave if you have only had wonderful things happen to you.” ~Mary Tyler Moore.

I have bipolar disorder, therefore I am brave.

I have suicidal thoughts and sometimes I do not want to be saved.

When I must face danger, I leave or disassociate.

When I need to face my fears, I am too afraid.

When I have too many struggles, sometimes I feel like I cannot and will not survive.

When there are too many obstacles in my way, sometimes I shut down and cannot move.

When I can’t get out of bed, I don’t.

When I can’t move, I’m frozen.

When I have lost all hope, I give up.

When I give up, I can’t put one foot in front of the other.

When I feel like crying, I do.

When I can’t smile, I don’t.

When I feel like yelling, I do.

When I can’t laugh, I cry.

When I am depressed, I feel like I have died.

When I want to be alone, I isolate myself for days.

When I don’t have the ability to take a shower, I don’t.

When I feel like dying, sometimes I truly want to be dead.

When I am afraid, I pray.

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I have bipolar disorder, therefore I am brave.

Instead of suicide, my life I have decided to save.

When I face danger, I open the door and see what’s inside.

When I must face my fears, I conquer them.

When I have struggles, I survive them.

When obstacles are in my way, I overcome them.

When I don’t want to get out of bed, I find the strength deep inside myself to get up.

When I can’t move, I find a way to stand up tall.

When I don’t want to walk, I put one foot in front of the other.

When don’t want to face another day, I take one moment at a time.

When I feel like crying, I smile.

When I can’t smile, I fake it.

When I feel like yelling, I laugh.

When I can’t laugh, I make a joyful noise.

When I want to be alone, I surround myself with people.

When I am afraid, I pray.

When I feel like dying, I choose to live another day.

My daughter has had to live with me, a single mom with bipolar disorder and PTSD, never knowing fully what to expect with me, therefore my daughter Alexia is the bravest and strongest and most resilient person I know.

She is my hero. Despite the many obstacles and struggles she has had to live with and overcome, she has persevered and survived becoming a very strong, courageous, wise beyond her years, good, kind, amazing and beautiful young woman. I am very proud of you Alexia. I love you.

I have bipolar disorder, therefore I am brave.

My daughter lives with a single bipolar mom, therefore she is much braver than I will ever be.

My three children have a mom with bipolar disorder, therefore they are the bravest people I know.

I am very proud of all of my children and I love them beyond any words I can convey.

I have bipolar disorder and God walking beside me holding my hand through it all, therefore I have nothing to fear.

I must remember that and…

I must pray.


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