Bipolar switches from two mood poles of mania to depression and back again.
The mood poles undulate gradually and mildly for some people with bipolar, but I have no undulation of my mood poles.
My mood poles switch from great dips and valleys to elevated climbs to the highest peaks. There are no stops in between my valleys below sea level to the tops of the mountains beyond the skies. My journey is full of swimming out of the oceans below to hiking up to the top of Mount Everest.
I seem to have no levels in between There is no resting in between my two extreme mood poles of hypomania to severe suicidal depression and back again and again.
Since I have been hiking the trails of bipolar for many years, I have become more agile with my climbs and learned to adapt to the rapid climate changes and elevations of my mood poles. I am now in a much better mental fitness state. My endurance has improved and I have become much better at coping with my hikes and journeys of bipolar symptoms.
I am surviving and living without having to be hospitalized, self harming, overdosing or attempting suicide anymore, like I did often in the past.
I think with mental illness we should be able to talk about our recovery journey and our survival like sobriety, and be able to celebrate it.
I have been clean and free from self harm, taking more medications than prescribed, overdosing, attempting suicide and needing to be hospitalized for four plus years. That is a very long time for me, since my diagnosis of onset postpartum bipolar 25 years ago.
I still must fight severe symptoms often, but I have learned how to cope better. Even though I have many difficult moments, I am surviving and coping better, safer and much more appropriately.
Thank you, God. I praise God for saving my life many times.
Again, I am now free from self harm, overdosing, suicide attempts and hospitalizations for over four years now. I am celebrating this and you should all celebrate your recovery too, no matter where you are in your own personal recovery.
Just so you know…
If you are alive, you are a survivor.
If you are alive, you are in recovery, somewhere and anywhere in your recovery is fabulous. I just wanted to clear that up.
Celebrate your survival.
Celebrate your recovery.
Celebrate your life.
Your life has purpose.
You have purpose and you matter.
We are all strong survivors.
We are awesome and fabulous in many beautiful and brilliant ways.
How is your recovery?
What have you accomplished and overcome?
Please share it, even if it is two days with no self harm, that is huge.
Even if you got out of bed today, that is huge.
What does your recovery look like today?
How can we celebrate you?
Please tell me. Please share.
Many blessings and hugs to you, always and forever. Love, Sue
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